one morning I stood at the stove

flipping pancakes and watching them cook
that subtle brokenness humming its song
so soft and sad and in the background 

then with unexpected clarity

a knowing wove itself through me
and here it is I'm writing it down
everyone is of god

not for the few and far between who

 gamble belief and destiny

not for the convinced

not for the special few

no it's not like that at all

it's humanities' inheritance

it is every being existing here

their beautiful code embedded within

and the knowing swept through me

my heart swelled I felt so relieved

with all the energy and excitement

of a good idea

this knowing I would keep

I would honor like glue

repairing me to wholeness

I would release the mindset that was

twenty years in the making

that broke my bond to humanity and gave it to

a separate few

but brought me to this point

I placed the pancakes on a plate

anybody want one?

let the wild flowers grow

as they may as they know

in the moment that they made

soft as sun bright as shade

in their presence we become

ever after gently won

do you know how many days passed by while I

in a white robe floated past the trees

toes skimming over the rooftops

a surface life no deeper than a smile

can you see the tiny granules of dirt?

have you touched the blades of grass

that felt soft and warm in small curious fingertips?

I knew that hill over in the corner of the yard

my yard was a family to me

I spent time in silky dress-ups with cats strolling by

and plastic teacups filled with a careful mixture of

sycamore bark eucalyptus leaf and daisy

the ground that was bought with a lifetime of days

never felt your touch never held your attention your eyes

elsewhere

skim by and flutter blurry being

I'll wait

says the patch of rich molecular density

I'll wait

she stands at the ocean's edge

the water backbends away

her mind pools with raw thoughts

that twist into old crevices

where they might remain

she stands at the water

the ocean's pulse does not penetrate

her attention

which stills in cool auras around her

her body's edge dissolves into the sand sea and sky

as her circulation and the waves

dubstep awkwardly

she will keep standing there at the ocean's side

they will find their common step

the sea and the woman will unite

in the moment that she turns and walks away